wow!

So let's just say I forgot all about my dearly beloved blog! Ha! I'm back. With twitter being the main outlet for me its gonna be hard but I can do it.

happy new year.......

So its been officially 2 months since my last post.

H-town is fun, meeting new people. Working harder than ever and moving into a new place that's waaaay closer to work. A major/ much needed convenience.

Its 2009 ladies and gents!! Crazy, but I'm ready. I don't really have any "resolutions" per say. But I do have things that I'm really going to try to stick to all year. For instance, being a better listener, making people work harder for things, eating better! This has been the hardest task since Houston has such great cuisine.

I wanna take a vacation this year. Like, to the Islands somewhere. I really need to get on that now. I'm really gonna try and blog more as well.

Well I gotta get this official moving day started so....peace and love Rev. Run

Its a Celebration Bitches

What more can I say??

Like I'm sooo overdone with emotion it's unbelievable. Who would of thought that after King was assassinated, Rosa made a stand, Emmit was murdered, Assata exiled, Geronimo fought, Malcolm rebeled, that a day like this would be possible??

This Man is amazing and represents that 'change' America needs! We have been through so much as African Americans that, to see this, a Black man become President, that this makes us know that "ALL" is possible. Barack is a blessing! His wife, Michelle, is legendary, his daughters, (the first kids!! Sasha and Malia) must be so proud of their parents! I'm over whelmed, over joyed.....

MUTHAFUCKAS JUST DON'T KNOW........

You are the one, you're the one.
Other fellas just don't know.You got to feel me on this one, man,so real, I'm so sin-serious about it,
oh,I know, I know more than few is gonna relate,(You are the one, you're the one.)so much more than a few, really real, so much more,are you really real?

When it started, I knew it was trouble,but you don't meet a ??? can't move me,I mean some shit straight out the movies,drama, warm to the touch, hot mama,put me on lien like ?long-steam? and scamma,you was Mrs. Mine, so fine,
went from we gonna conquer it all,to nigga, I'm a see you in court,I woulda never thought,I guess I'd better think again,okay, now the. shit is really sinkin' in,we ain't just divorced, we ain't even fuckin' friends,‘cause in the end it was all about the ends,but fuck that I know got to be more ?to it?,held up a ?bale? a hate, ‘cause I saw through it,and when I looked, what did I see?You on the other end, cryin' like me.Expression on your face, like how could this be?That's what I'm askin', what the fuck happened?How could all the magic and passion just vanish?went from outstandin' to makin' me shout damnit,can't explain the change in behavior it's outlandish,now I'm just stuck in the row/roa', I feel insanit',I'm in the dark, wishin' for the answers,on some more Biggie, gimme one more chance shit,when we met your face was so brown,your ass was so round, the course was so down,wish I knew then what the fuck I know now,couldn't read the signs on the road, slow it down,too deep in the road now, got me pullin' over gettin' smoked out,fightin' tears that I can't hold down, can't believe it, this fucker got me weepin',I keep it a secret so my friends won't peep it.But late in the evenin', I'm up, my chest heavin',I'm reachin' in the dark, and I'm lookin' for the reason,why, did our love have to die?You and I was so fuckin' fly,can't get it off my mind,the things that made me smile, now make me cry,you are the one, you're the one.Fuck you!I wish we never met, I wish we never kissed,I wish we never touched, (swear to God),I wish I didn't love you so much,I wish I could forget how you feel, how you f***, (damn)that's ???, the shit that made me smile, now make me cry,you are the one, you're the one!Fuck you!Some, time I wish you'd come back,man, I wish you'd come back,for real,fuck that.Now for real.

This the dangerous necessity,it's the world famous mystery,
Love.

That's it.

Peace....(Mos Def)

*disclaimer: this is how I'm feeling*

guess whos bizzzack?

Man! Sorry ma nigga's it's been kinda crazy lately and thus not allowing me to focus on my blog! Well since the last blog let's see what's new?.....

I turned 27!! (Praise Jesus!)
Met new folks, got a J-O-B! (Holla!), touring the cities finding new ish to do. Been dealing with a whole lotta dumb-ness! Truth be told it's really matured me enough to make better decisions and not be afraid of consequences. I think it's funny if, like, I'm on myspace and every time I change my status (which is often lol) er'body status seems to say they're tired of "drama, men/women lying, heartbreak, staying when they wanna go and just wanting be happy-minus DRAMA". That I can definitely feel.


On to a much different note...question for my folks. I was listening to the radio a few days ago and they were talking about, have you ever gotten something you wanted sooo bad and when you got it really didn't want it no more? Like did you want something that you thought was gonna be exactly what you wanted and needed and then when you received it ('IT' could be a purse, man, woman, friend, car, whatever!) You just really wasn't satisfied! It just wasn't what "it" was all cracked up to be? Lawd knows that's happened one too many times to me but most recently to be frank. Please feel free to leave your thoughts on this question!

Have a Happy and Safe Halloween!

Please vote, in certain states early voting ends today! But you still have November 4th to make that change! Get out and don't be lazy! It actually feels good!

Peace and love...muchos smoochos!!

As I sit here in total silence (ok I lied the tv is on but I ain't paying attention to it) and sip my (second) glass of fine wine (Moscato!), I start to think about a sermon I heard a few months back. Pastor Miles (super fine) McPhearson preached. He was speaking about when he meets young couples soooo "in love" wanting to get married and thinking love is all you need, he smiles to his self. To be naïve and think love will get you through cause she/he cute, or they dress dope, or he looks nice in clothes that it will be the basis for a marriage. He was saying that most people don't reach their full potential until about 40, 45. His reasoning was in your 20's your experiencing things and learning things, your 30's your tired of the junk in your 20's and want more and you start learning what career is right for you, in your 40's you actually start in your career and begin your life minus whatever baggage. (This is me paraphrasing what I heard). I totally agree. For some reason we feel we should have stuff figured out cause either our parents did, our friends do, or whatever the case maybe but to be honest it's best when you learn about yourself. Those situations your in that you don't like and you come out wondering what to do next should be the same ones that you never return to cause you should of learned. I'm the last to speak on what you should and shouldn't do. I live out loud, which is not always good......Those that know me know that I'm 26, in my second marriage, first kid, adult AdHd, crazy family, stubborn?, thoughtful, and full of mistakes. Some have been duplicated 3 times over. But that's how you get it right. It would be good if you could just touch the fire see that it's hot and move the hell on. But in some cases the fire starts to feel good and before you can see the deep 3rd degree burns it too late. Since this wine has clearly taken me off my topic, I'm gonna be done. Time for a nice shower and some rest....peace and love

*disclaimer*

THEY SAY.....

*REAL RECOGNIZE REAL, AND YOUR LOOKIN FAMILIAR....Jay-Z*

This past week, or weekend as shown me things about myself that are funny, new, old, and just plain need to be wiped away. I feel sometimes what other peoples opinions are, seem to be important to the point that it'll be on my mind for a long time! Like in everything I do, I wonder, "was that a shot at me?", "was I wrong for saying that?" Or whatever. When at the end of the day the way people are, are just who they are and it ain't nothing I can do about it except let them be them, but not let them infiltrate me.


I just love when I meet someone and they'rw just real as shit! Like not "real" in a "I gotta make sure everybody know I'm real", "I can cuss a nigga out quick, I'm just that real". I really like when I see someone or meet them and they are just like real in a "I'm glad people like this still exist in the world!" For instance when we went to that poetry night the host was soo vivacious, gangsta, and just plum real! It was like a breath of fresh air.

I don't need a bunch of metaphors or similies, quotes, or lyrics to make me believe you? Or "nigga I just shot a nigga 3 hours ago, I'm just that damn real" speeches. Rather, you just be you and it'll shine through.


I have, in the past, just been friendly with any and every damn body, thinking they couldn't possibly hurt me since I wouldn't fecesiously, or deliberately hurt them. And man was that a major fuck up. I also tend to live my life and have all my mistakes, feelings, and joys lived out loud. Meaning people see me and my mistakes and if they have questions I answer ALL of them. But not anymore. I'm gonna be who I am, but I won't let opinions and judging define who I think "people" want me to be.


Thanks to all my friends and fam that keep it real and take me as I am,,,or have nothing at all.....

Peace and love...